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[08 May 2005|09:27am] If you need me I will probably be on my "harmodius" livejournal. Dream

[07 May 2005|11:47pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Elliot Smith- Everything Reminds Me Of Her(stuck in my head) ] I wish all the answers that I search for during the day would come to me at night. I'm going to bed. I hope I dream. Dream

[06 May 2005|01:11pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | My Top Twenty One Favorite Depressing Songs ] Top Twenty Songs That Make Me Cry (Not In Any Particular Order): Those To Come- The Shins The Way I Feel Inside- Nico(?) Lullaby- The Cure Pitseleh- Elliot Smith Oh Well, Okay- Elliot Smith Everybody Know, Everybody Cares- Elliot Smith I Don't Understand- Elliot Smith Needle In The Hay-Elliot Smith Coming Up Roses- Elliot Smith The White Lady Loves You More- Elliot Smith The Biggest Lie- Elliot Smith Everything Reminds Me of Her- Elliot Smith Everything Means Nothing To Me- Elliot Smith Happiness- Elliot Smith Bye- Elliot Smith Pretty (Ugly Before)- Elliot Smith The Last Hour- Elliot Smith Pretty One- Elliot Smith Little One- Elliot Smith Whoops, I Od'd- NoFx Mad World- Tears For Fears ...does anyone else find Elliot Smith rediculously depressing? 4 Dared Dream

[04 May 2005|07:17am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Elliot Smith- Say Yes ] These days, I don't feel like getting out of bed in the morning. Your love was everything to me and I'm losing it. But, as much as I fucking hate every second of this, We need this time. Because I can't go on doubting you. I need to clear this up now. Ryan. 3 Dared Dream

[03 May 2005|07:36am] I wish I didn't love you and I wish I didn't care about you and I wish you felt the same so this all wouldn't hurt so fucking much. I love you so much and that is why I feel like crying, because I don't want this to be true but I can't helping wondering if it is. I wish things hadn't changed. I wish you hadn't changed. I wish my perception of you hadn't changed. Ignorance seemed a lot sweeter. I don't know. Ryan. 19 Dared Dream

i love you [01 May 2005|10:23pm] i love you Dream

[28 Apr 2005|05:13pm] [ mood | guilty ] I'm sorry. ... I'm sorry. Dream

[27 Apr 2005|08:03am] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | Elliott Smith- Coming Up Roses ] ( Survey ) I love you! ...ryan 2 Dared Dream

[26 Apr 2005|09:06pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Rufus Waiwright- Chocolate milk and Cigarettes ] So, today was okay. It was definitly better than I thought it would be. That made me happy. I was reaaaally not looking forward to going to work. But, of course, I never am. Anywho, tomorrow will be better I hope. I will see Cat and that will definitly be good for us. It always is. I am longing for this summer to come quickly so I can quit my job, go surfing, hang out with Cat, and be done with school (for now). I feel...worn out. eh. Lame. I love Rufus Wainwright. Thank you SO much for burning me the cd's. I love you! Ryan. Dream

[26 Apr 2005|07:27am] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | The Weather Channel ] I feel so crappy this morning. I don't like it. Dream

[25 Apr 2005|07:05pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | Rufus Wainwright- Greek Song ] ( You've been robbed ) ( Robbed again ) ( Shit ) 2 Dared Dream

Sick of being lazy and unproductive but doing nothing about it. [25 Apr 2005|03:24pm] [ mood | crappy ] Knowing that you are so close and that I have no way of getting to you makes me miss you even more. Uhh, I need to get a car and the ability to drive. (If god's greatest gift to us is freewill, then how can he make rules and restrict that? So it's freewill, but we have to do what he tell's us to? Please explain this to me.) 4 Dared Dream

[25 Apr 2005|07:28am] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | Micheal W. Smith- My Place In This World ] I want to come on and brag about how awesome my night was last night and how you are all very jealous because your nights couldn't be as awesome as mine. But, I don't have enough time before I go to work to do all of that. So, just pretend like I said things like "My night was AMAZING!" and "You are SOO friggin jealous!" and other comments such as these. And then get really jealous and leave me a comment. Ok? Okay. I love you, Catherine. Dream

[22 Apr 2005|11:56pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Rufus Wainwright- Foolish Love ] I am going to a wedding tomorrow. Unfortunately, it is not my own. Always the bride's maid, never the bride. I watched Closer tonight, well, at least the parts I could stay focused on, anyways. The plot was shaky, the ending horrible, and the acting was mediocre. I suggest you all go see it. As for me, I am going to attempt the death defying act of sleeping (Millions of people die in their sleep every year, you know. It's very dangerous.) Catherine and I are like two pea's in a pod. The end. Ryan. P.S. (I still love you very much) 5 Dared Dream

[21 Apr 2005|10:38pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | Elliot Smith- Say Yes ] Simply in love, that's what I am. Simply in love. Tonight's perfection can not be described. I love you. ryan. Dream

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